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    Anonymous

    hmmm….maybe i’ll be okay if i don’t go to meetings. (After all, i’m doing so well…)

    hmmmmm…i’m so tired, i think i’ll sleep in.

    hmmmm…i’m so busy, i don’t have time to go to gym…

    i have soooooo many behaviors to change it’s crazy-making. but i pray for willingness. willingness to do the right thing. willingness to be capable of being willing.



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    Anonymous

    [ I can still go into “insane mode” when I get caught up in self-will trying to dominate and control situations that are not mine to control or into warped ways of thinking. When I do this, I get the same old results. Fortunately I then have step 3 where I can turn everything back over to my HP and stop the insanity.

    I hope this made sense!

    Hugs,
    Kellye

    Thanks Kellye, that really resonated with me, that is exactly where I am at, not with alcohol but with other behaviors. I have recently been throught some very painful stuff, and the sheer pain of it is allowing hp to restore me to sanity. I became friends with some people very different from those whom I would normally be drawn to; honestly I just fell into it. Now I find myself in the pain of having been betrayed and I am having to step back and look at myself in every part of the process and honestly aprise where I went wrong. I just was not paying attention, not listenin to my gut at all like I should have been; it’s like I believed I was invincible and nothing could hurt me. Boy did I learn the hard way. This is where I am at in the steps now, having gone through step two and having to turn it all back over to a higher power, also having to make a promise to myself to PAY ATTENTION to what is going on around me and who I let into my life.



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    Anonymous

    @scootinbabe 1252677 wrote:

    hmmm….maybe i’ll be okay if i don’t go to meetings. (After all, i’m doing so well…)

    hmmmmm…i’m so tired, i think i’ll sleep in.

    hmmmm…i’m so busy, i don’t have time to go to gym…

    i have soooooo many behaviors to change it’s crazy-making. but i pray for willingness. willingness to do the right thing. willingness to be capable of being willing.

    Thanks for reminding me that I can pray for things like willingness that I do not have. I forget that if I am not ‘there’ I can pray for hp to help me get there. I don’t know how many times I have forgotten that concept over the course of my time sober but it has been multitudes. I mean, it’s like if I am not 100% where I need to be at the moment I am SOL and need to just give up and go do some self- or other-destructive behavior…thanks for sharing that and reminding me hp can help get me where I need to be.



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