This topic contains 18 replies, has 0 voices, and was last updated by Anonymous 8 years, 10 months ago.
- March 25, 2016 at 8:34 am #4639367
Water is fatal if you drink too much of it, but water is not a toxin. Alcohol is a toxin regardless of quantity, but the human body has a certain tolerance too this toxin. Over time (or if you drink too much at once) it will kill you.
In terms of controlling your drinking, here is what the big book of AA has to say:
Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people. The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.
I have seen this play out in the rooms of AA many times, and have had many friends die from alcoholism.
I just wanted you to read this if you hadn’t already. If you want to try to control your drinking have at it. If you find yourself back in he same spot we are here for you.March 25, 2016 at 9:39 am #4639376
@LKKPA 2550972 wrote:
2) I continue to have the thought (and I know this is insane and delusional) that once I am abstinent for a long period of time, do the recovery work and resume working as a medical professional, that I will be able to one day drink like a “normal” person again. This thought above all else is very concerning to me and I know is something that I need to get rid of.
What Step 1 work did you do with your sponsor? Did you look at the exact nature of your problem?….in that you cannot take another drink however long sober you have been.
There is a lot in the book about this in the Dr’s opinion and the first 4 chapters. The 5th chapter, p60, starts at Step 3, so if you are doing Step 2, you should have fully understood the preceding chapters.March 25, 2016 at 10:02 am #4639366
In your first post here, you wrote…..:
“…I continue to have the thought (and I know this is insane and delusional) that once I am abstinent for a long period of time, do the recovery work and resume working as a medical professional, that I will be able to one day drink like a “normal” person again…”
In your second post, you wrote….:
“…I continue to have the desire/thought that one day I would be able to enjoy a drink on special occasions like other, non-alcoholic people do every day…”
and again, back in your first post here…..:
“…This thought above all else is very concerning to me and I know is something that I need to get rid of…”
For me, the answer to your question, as to whether you’ll be able to return to drinking like a normal/non-alcoholic person, would be…: well, that’s an easy one….if you’re a non-alcoholic, the answer is yes, of course, you’ll be able to return to having the occasional drink, but if you’re an alcoholic, then the answer is a resounding NO! …..the choice/decision is up to you.
I’m with intention on this one. I would suggest that you go back to your sponsor and put this question to her, and discuss it thoroughly. It truly does sound as if you have some Step-1 questions/doubts to go over, and possibly, get over. This thinking does kind have an ‘insane’ ring to it.
Here’s hoping you find the answers you need…….. (o:
You must be logged in to reply to this topic.