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- January 13, 2017 at 4:48 pm #4839080
I am just starting the 12 steps. I have not had a drink in 5 days. Although I completely accept step 1 right now at this moment and it’s actually given me a small sense of freedom I haven’t felt in so many years, I fear overconfidence in myself will lead to my forgetting it, so I am spending time working it- on paper- even though I feel ready for step 2. I am going to AA and I hear over and over from so many there that living steps 1, 10, 11, and 12 daily is what keeps them sober. I am very new to this so what do I know? But I am listening intently!!!!
Thanks to everyone for their stories and insights. Not one that I hear doesn’t hold some similarity to my own. Fills me with a hope that I have not had in years. VERY very cool.January 13, 2017 at 7:00 pm #4839081
only my second post on this site and I hope it comes across sensible to others.when I came into aa this time after going through these room for 30 stinking years, quitting for weeks then months even up to 3 years I can tell you form my expierence that obsession goes nowhere . i’ll have it till I die.Alchohol was my courage,my one liners ,my ice breaker.Trust me its still the demon that brought me to jail and institutions.my mind wanted alchohol every minute of everyday. even when sober I’d get those thoughts when I’d see a movie or a tv show with people drinking in a bar ,I can still go in there and drink. Pleasssssssssssssssssssssssse.Step one when I finally got serious at age 56, I am an alchoholic and my life is unmanagable. you can look at that and pass right by say ok now step 2. My life is unmanagable with and without liquor but if you add liquor to my sick mind its disaster. I’m glad to say I work step one every single day, all day and never forget it. I feel good after writing this I hope someone understands and can use it.tyJanuary 14, 2017 at 3:34 pm #4839052
This is a step 1 thread right?
Simple summary of step 1 ( at least how I see it ), though I would say the process of IDENTIFYING with step 1 took awhile to sink in.
1> When I drink alcohol, I want to drink more alcohol. In fact, I would say that when I drink alcohol I NEED to drink more. I am not able to get this under control, and I have tried many,many times.
2> I know that drinking alcohol leads to drinking more alcohol and it has caused more than a little trouble in my life. One of the worst things I can possibly due to myself is to put alcohol into my system. I know this to be true without a doubt. Then comes the day where I drink again – with or without much forethought.
The harsh version of part 2, step1 – I WILL drink again, no matter what.
There doesn’t seem to be a point where all I have to do is concentrate on NOT drinking (seems utterly ridiculous way to live anyhow)…an effective step 1 sank deep into me: I will drink, and when I do I won’t be able to stop..and there is NOTHING I can do about it.
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