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- April 23, 2017 at 5:37 am #3750439
clean n sober since july,7,2010 and i feel good ive been noticing my disease trying to creep back up on me the other day for some reason i kept thinking about getting high…. i mean even things i never cared for not just about my drug of choice..meth… but i was thinking about maybe a pill,n then my brain said well maybe a beer i kept pushing the thoughts out and eventually they went away but it was really weird after all this time…..
:headbangeApril 23, 2017 at 11:39 pm #4927191
Welcome! My experience with using drugs was the better part of my life…from age 12 to age 40. 9 months into my recovery did not seem like “after all this time” to me.
Our program (NA) mentions to “give ourselves a break”. For me, 9 months was indeed a break. Thank goodness I got a sponsor and worked the steps! It’s simply not natural for us addicts to never think of using, especially early in our recovery. I do understand that it seems “really wierd” when using doesn’t come after thinking it!
It’s the right thing to do to admit these thoughts and expose them for what they are. Congratulations!
This disease of addiction dies in the light of exposure.
If I may suggest that next time you get such thoughts, call another recovering addict and tell them about it…and then come here and tell us how quickly the thoughts went away. The quicker you call…the quicker they go away.
Do you have numbers of other recovering addicts to call?
MissyApril 23, 2017 at 11:47 pm #4927184
It’s the right thing to do to admit these thoughts and expose them for what they are.
I totally agree.
Every blue moon I have thoughts of using as well, but they’re just thoughts or memories. I know I don’t have to act on them and I never have to use again.
Thanks for sharing.
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