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- June 20, 2017 at 7:20 pm #3753971
Hello everyone I’m finally posting here! I don’t want to go into too much detail right now other then to say I’ve been binge drinking since I was 18, now 37, and I’m done.
I’ve been thinking about quitting a lot the past several months. I’ve decided I don’t like me drunk anymore if that makes any sense. I’ve taken a few couple week breaks but I don’t really tell anyone so its easy for me to go back to drinking. This time I’m putting it in writing here and telling my friends and family. I figure it will make it harder to go back.
I know I can do it. I just recently got out of the army and during my 2 tours in Iraq I wasn’t allowed to drink for a total of 2 years and it wasn’t so bad lol! Well thats almost true. During my 2 week mid tour leaves all I did was get hammered with buddies. I honestly can not remember anything about those breaks now. Some vacation huh.
I’m not sure what happened but for you Matrix fans I feel like at some point I’ve taken the red pill. Now every time I drink I feel bad about it the next day. This in sharp contrast to my 20’s when I didn’t even care about the next day haha! Now I aspire to be a better person.
Anyway been lurking here for a while now but have not been able to bring myself to join until today. You guys seem like a great bunch and I look forward to spending time here. I think I’m going to have to, especially once the weekends roll around.
Oh while I’m at it think I’m gonna quit smoking too. 🙂June 20, 2017 at 7:25 pm #4968512
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings Khyron. You will find a lot of supportive people on this site. I’m glad you are ready to tell everyone. I have struggled with that and it has hurt my progress. Good for you!June 20, 2017 at 7:38 pm #4968516
Thanks Missy. I’ve read some of your posts and I have a similar cycle. I’ll drink all weekend, spend a few days recovering, and then when I feel good by friday I celebrate by getting drunk. I was gonna quit last weekend. I signed up for a 2 day rifle marksmanship course out of town. I figured I didn’t want to be around for the weekend. Anyway the class was great, I actually was the top shot in the class and got a patch which was awesome. Anyway I get home Sunday night feeling great about myself and what do I do? I head to the bar to celebrate, make an ass out of myself and have a horrible 2 day hangover. Ridiculous.
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