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Have I thrown it all away??

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    Hey everyone. I have been a drug addict, and a functioning alcoholic for about 12 years. I was recently being groomed for a promotion at work. I had everything going for me and I threw it all away night before last. Like any alcoholic, and drug addict story it all begins with just a few beers!! after that it was a box of wine. And before I knew it I was at a friends house doing plant food. I did so much that I tried to call into work that morning. Problem was, so did everyone else. I ended up going in and I told them the truth. It’s always been my experiences that when you messed up, own up to it. I went in to see them but couldn’t deal with the panic attacks and told them I wouldn’t be able to work at all. This stuff isn’t illegal to have, but it is if your going to consume it. Here is my question, my firm has a policy of any detection of illegal drugs, and your terminated on the spot. Should I be looking for a new job? I just talked to my GM and he is going to talk to the owner, but I am suspended in the meantime without pay. I really let everyone down this time and I plan to never drink again. This is what triggers these bad decisions.



    If you worked for me you’d be gone. However, I think these days if you turn yourself in for help, there might be a chance for you. Problem is, like the Big Book says, most of us had to get to the point of losing everything before we took the problem seriously. Are you at that point? There are probably dozens of qualified people out there who don’t drink and do drugs who could use your job, just waiting for the opportunity to go to work. Sounds like all you can do is wait.



    I have been a functioning alcoholic for 22 years. I was married two years ago, had a son. My wife just left me because of the drinking. I gave my life to GOD, prayed hard, got in to counseling and AA. Sometimes you have to lose everything before you gain anything. Where you are now you cant see that. I dont know what your beliefs are but I can tell you that you need to get help. You arent in control. If you believe in GOD ask him for help, ask for wisdom and patience. Throughout my years of drinking, I lost great paying jobs, friends, I even stole from my mom to drink. As I lost these things I buried myself in a bottle. Losing the love of my life and losing time with my son made me get serious about getting help. If you are ready to stop believing that you are in control, take a moral inventory of yourself and frankly stop playing GOD, then now is the greatest oppurtunity you have to stop killing yourself, your career and your relationships. I am no guru on getting sober, I know what worked for me and I hope you are successful. Read the AA book, take the steps and believe in yourself, BUT realize you are not alone, you can get another job, but not another life. Dont give up. I hope you get serious about help!!

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