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- January 6, 2017 at 9:12 pm #4834042
Welcome 12alive! Glad you are here! Lots of different experiences and wisdom to be found in these friendly folks! Keep reading and posting and let us know what ya think!January 7, 2017 at 12:21 am #4834041
Alcohol has never been my problem, though for years I thought it was. There is no denying that I gave alcohol the power that it had over me. Therefore i am the problem and the solution must be to find some way to fix me. AA did that for me. The most insane thing i ever did was continue to take the FIRST drink, I was completely sober when I picked up the first drink….think about that for a moment. Do you have the ability to react sanely with regard to the FIRST drink by not having it?January 7, 2017 at 12:23 am #4834044
Thanks 12live. I was reading and your post made me sign on and start my journey. I don’t know how I started drinking so much. Late in my 30s, very happy, I enjoy life with or without alcohol. But, really enjoy the way it makes me feel at the end of the day (have kids) Problem is I love the way it relaxes me so I have more, and more. Next thing I know I am waking up, before the kids do on the couch and don’t remember the show I last watched. Clean the glass so they can’t see it, have put water in the bottle so they don’t know how much I drank. And so on. I can go a day without it, but feel at the end of a busy day “I deserve it”. Hate the way I feel in the morning, and eat awful therefore I have gained weight. I can go out with my husband and he will tell me to stop but don’t. Then I wake up the next am with the questions. Why are you mad at me? Did I do something wrong? How did I get to bed? Did I say good bye to our friends? He can stop…..I just won’t end the party. But I can go nights without it. Each morning I do I am so proud of myself. I read that people have gone years with out alcohol….I can’t imagine it. Is step 1 reconizing all this….or I am past it?????????
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