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- June 14, 2017 at 11:26 pm #3753614
Hello, my name is Jen, I am a 33 year old mother of 4 boys, I have a wonderful marraige, and the perfect husband. But on and off for the past 10 years I have been addicted to pain pills. I have been truly addicted for the past 3 years. I would find reasons to “need” them, I would lie, I would buy, I would do almost anything for them. My husband has known, and has tried to help get me clean before, but it didn’t last long. I ended up having to have surgery, and you guessed it, back on the pain pills. It has put us in bad situations financially and emotionally. I know he loves me with all his heart, and he is by my side helping me. I have just gotten to a point where the addiction has started to become obvious to other people. I know in my heart I need to stop, I need to quit. I really feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. I feel I am missing out on my children growing up, because it’s one big blur, because I am high. I cry, and cry, and cry, and I never can figure out why I have done this to myself. I just really want to make it, I really want to beat this. I live in a small town in the middle of nowhere, so going to meetings, is almost impossible. I have been reading things on here for days, before I signed up, guess just wanted to make sure it was what I was looking for. And hopefully with the support of people here, and my wonderful husband, I can beat this. I have too.June 14, 2017 at 11:42 pm #4965055
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings seansavedme.
Have you called your local NA office about meetings? You may find that it’s not as impossible as you think 🙂
We also have a main Substance Abuse forum and a Newcomers forum here. I encourage you to check out both of those as well for more support 🙂
it’s good to have you with us 🙂
DJune 18, 2017 at 2:32 am #4965057
I live in a real small town too, no meetings within more than an hour’s drive. I DO have a sponsor, which makes a HUGE difference, and I did live in a city with many meetings the first six months of my recovery. THAT was a huge help as well, but this forum is now my meeting. I come every day.
I encourage you to find the nearest meeting, and get there at least occasionally, so you can form a phone network, get a sponsor and have a recovery “home”. Those connections are a huge help.
You may be somewhat isolated geographically but you are NOT alone. NA has literature aimed at the geographically isolated addict. And save up some money to attend the next NA convention in your region. When I was floundering in recovery I drove 5 hours to a convention and slept in my car so I could spend a few days in an atmosphere of recovery. Many people shared their stories with me and listened to mine.
The resources are out there and you have already found some of them. A lot of the literature is readable online too!
Hope to see more of you and congratulations on your new recovery.
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