I have had times like you are describing tonight. I just couldn’t get the thought out of my head…..I changed the furniture around in my livingroom rather than throwing it around like I wanted to. I took my shoes off…put them on…took them off…and on again and went to get that six pack of beer. Someone came over and that was the end of it…off I went to the hospital for my depression and severe anger at the whole world….don’t know what happened to the rest of the beer but it wasn’t there when I got home.
Please call someone you can talk honestly with. Go to a meeting if it isn’t too late tonight….do you have a Sponsor for times like this? Do some more playing music on your Guitar. I use my portable CD Player in bed at night when I can’t sleep.
My prayers go out to you tonight…six months is a long time….:praying