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- December 30, 2016 at 2:05 pm #4824714
Still coming to terms and acceptance that I can never drink again.
I’ve been reading the big book and coming to understand that I am an alcoholic of that type. All I have to do is reflect on some things I’ve done in the last 25 years and it becomes an easy realization that I am powerless over alcohol.
Haven’t had a chance to talk to my sponser today but I believe I’m ready to move on the to the 2nd part of step 1 and seek out how my life had become unmanagable.December 30, 2016 at 2:58 pm #4824706
I’ve been told i’m missing something on step one…so just my 2 cents worth…it seems it’s more than knowning that you are an alchoholic of that type (I totally get that) I think something has to change to where you don’t have the desire to feel the ease and comfort….I don’t know how to make that happen, but it seems to be a part of the first step, and one that can’t be logiced through…
anyhow just some ideas.
work with your sponsor and you can do this!December 30, 2016 at 3:50 pm #4824709
Step 1 is an admission that you have the illness.
What is the illness?
Once I start drinking, I lose control over the amount I drink. That’s why the “controlled drinking” experiment works. It shows me if I have the physical allergy to alcohol. If I have it, and real alcoholics do, once I put alcohol into my body, it activates the phenomenon of craving. At that point I’d be off to the races, and the only things to stop me were getting sick, passing out or other drugs. Indeed, here I see I am powerless over alcohol.
Furthermore, I can’t stop and stay stopped for a significant amount of time based purely on my own resources. Why? The mental obsession – it’s what would send me back to the bottle. Every time I went back for that first drink, I was doing it stone-cold sober. The problem was that I could not manage the thought not to drink. My life showed the results of that, but my thought-life was where I was really losing the war first.
This lethal combination would have me dead. The only way I know of treating this condition comes by addressing it spiritually. Having a spiritual experience as a result of working the 12 Steps and establishing a healthy relationship with a power greater than ourselves are what allow us to recover from alcoholism.
On page 30 it reads, “We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.”
Step 1 says: “We admitted…”
When you admit what is in Step 1 to your innermost self, you have completed Step 1.
Find a sponsor who can take you through the steps in a reasonable amount of time just as they are laid out in the Big Book. It’s the best way I know for replacing a lot of vagaries and guesswork with reliable simplicity. It’s also the best way I know for surviving alcoholism, including in the rooms.
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