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    Anonymous

    I AM A MOTHER OF 2 COLLEGE GRADUATED AND A POTHEAD. I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE PROBABLY LAUGHING AT ME RIGHT NOW SAYING POT ISN’T A DRUG BUT IT HAS STOPPED ME FROM BEING A PARENT IT COSTED ME A VERY HIGH PAYING JOB ON PK AVE. AND IS GETTING READY TO COST ME MY HUSBAND WHO DOESNT EVEN DRINK. AT 1ST IT WAS A FUN BUT IT IS NO LONGER FUN I HAVE TRIED TO STOP MANY TIMES OVER THE YRS WITH NO LUCK ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY USES AND SELLS WHICH MAKES IT HARD THEN WHEN I STAY AWAY FROM THEM I AM A BAD PERSON IN THERE EYES I ONLY TIME I MANAGED TO STAY CLEAN IS WHEN IM PREGGOS AND HELL WHO WANTS TO KEEP GETTING KNOCKED UP IN ORDER TO STAY CLEAN.
    I WANT MY LIFE BACK I HAVE LOST ALMOST EVERYTHING I WORK IN AN ENVIRONMENT WHERE THEY GET HIGH OR DRUNK ATY WORK EVEN THOU I NEVER LET ON TO MY COWORKERS THAT I HAVE A PROBLEM I WANT TO QUIT EVERYONE LAUGHS AT ME AND SAYS THERE NO REHAB FOR THAT U JUST HAVE TO DO IT I HAVE TRIED BUT CAN ISTARTED OUT WITH 1 $10 HABIT FOR 2 DAYS WORTH OF POT I HAVE DONE THE MATH I SPEND APPROX. $7000 – 8000 A YEAR ON THIS HABIT I KNOW I HAVE ISSUSE WITH DEPRESSION AND I AM SACRED TO TALK TO ANYONE I NO BC OF GOSSIP AND JUDGEMENT. MY HUSBAND TALKS CRAP ABOUT ME AND MY ADDICATION TO EVERYONE HE KNOWS AND I HARDLY LEAVE THE HOUSE NOW OUT OF EMBRASSMENT I FEEL LOST HOPELESS AND LIKE A LIAR PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS OK AND I AM SCREAMING INSIDE SOMEONE PLEASE HELP I HAVE STARTED TAKING OXY’S AND I CAN SEE THE PATH IS GOING TO GET WORSE BEFORE BETTER IF I DONT GET SOME HELP
    SO CAN ANYONE PLEASE OFFER ME SOME HELP:praying



    #4483572

    Anonymous

    First no on is going to laugh at you and pot IS a drug. Second, yes you can go to rehab for a pot addiction. And that is what I suggest, rehab or hit an NA meeting today!!!!!

    You are alive, there is hope as long as we are alive. Give yourself credit for reaching out here, call your local NA hotline, I am sure there are several meetings in NY for you to choose from, go to a meeting today!!!!!!!!!



    #4483577

    Anonymous

    Your not cazy that’s what happens these drugs they take over our minds to the point that we no longer know who we are. This will be a battle but you can overcome this- go to a meeting or look around in your local paper for a support group- overcoming powerlessness or addictions- most support groups have the same idea rolling around. I’m a mommy too and I know the chaios of an addiction and being a mom- Find a sponsor-in the meetings- to help you. You can get through this without going to rehab but you have to dedicate yourself more than you ever have before and you have to be willing to change people, places, and things- there going to think your mean oh well it’s part of recovery it’s a selfish program and it’s to get you clean. It sounds like your husband mocks you- that’s not support I would hook him and your kids up with some alnon literature- this is life or death!



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