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    “Therefore, we started upon a personal inventory. This was Step Four. A business which takes no regular inventory usually goes broke. Taking commercial inventory is a fact-finding and a fact-facing process. It is an effort to discover the truth about the stock-in-trade. One object is to disclose damaged or unsalable goods, to get rid of them promptly and without regret. If the owner of the business is to be successful, he cannot fool himself about values.

    “We did exactly the same thing with our lives. We took stock honestly. First, we searched out the flaws in our make-up which caused our failure. Being convinced that self, manifested in various ways, was what had defeated us, we considered its common manifestations.

    “Resentment is the “number one” offender.”

    I have been through this process as directed in the Big Book, with the help of a loving and caring God and my Big Book Step Study sponsor.

    I first made column one with a list of names of people, institutions and principles I was angry with and held resentments toward. I would first ask God to help me be honest and thorough. I did people first, then institutions and then principles. And everytime I would get back to writing my list, I would ask of God to help me be honest and thorough each time. I don’t know how many days it took me to finally complete this list because there would be times I’d be sitting there, asking for help, for maybe an hour before I would remember another. And when I was at the end, I took a couple of days to try to remember more, just to be sure I was as thorough as I could possibly be.

    Then I made column two and listed the causes. And then column three and listed the affects. When I completed the three columns I let my sponsor know as was his direction and he came and helped me with my first few turnarounds as to make sure I understood what I was to be writing. When I finished those I made a sex inventory the same way as directed in the Big Book. When all of this was done, it was suggested I make a fears list. My sponsor also told me to also make out a list about the good things about myself. Reminding me that we all have good in us. I did go on line to get a list of fears, I forget where I got them from but there was a hundred or even more on the list, I don’t remember. I could indentify with all of them but there were a lot that affected me more than others. And then me and my sponsor went over my fears. I already had a list of what I thought was good about myself and we proceeded to go over that at a later date.

    And as my sponsor told me, the amount of names I had listed and the amount of notebooks I had filled out were not relevent to anyone else but to me and God. He reminded me that this isn’t about bragging rights on who had the most.

    How long all of this took I can’t really say because I didn’t keep a date on when I started and when I finished. I can say this much, it seemed to last forever.

    Thanks for letting me share.

    Harry



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    jacque
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    @Harry01854 2684653 wrote:

    And as my sponsor told me, the amount of names I had listed and the amount of notebooks I had filled out were not relevent to anyone else but to me and God. He reminded me that this isn’t about bragging rights on who had the most.

    ONLY an alkie would find a way to feel “less-than” because they weren’t able to list “enough” defects of character!!! LOL 😉



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