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- October 27, 2015 at 3:02 am #3721803
SO, I’ve done steps 1,2,3 like a hundred times (okay, I am exaggerating) and I have faith that I can be restored to sanity. I came to believe and I don’t want to use anymore. That feeling is gone. I know where that takes me and I just don’t want to go there. But, the insanity is so apperant in so many other areas of my life. & I just want it to stop! GOD doesn’t seem to be filling my void as much as ‘they’ say it should. Like, today for example. I feeeeel like I relapsed! I went shopping! Which is not something I can afford to do. I know the result, yet I did it anyway. Complete insanity. & the parallels between that and using were just unbelievable. The whole time I was at the mall, I felt like I was using drugs; I was telling myself I wouldn’t buy anything, yet couldn’t seem to stop myself. & same with sex. and other various things. I just can’t seem to figure it out! Somebody please help me out! :c021:March 29, 2016 at 1:39 am #4547880
hugs hun, I know it’s hard. Keep trying. It’s easy to substitute stuff for using.November 29, 2016 at 7:14 pm #4547881
God can’t do it all. It’s up to you to make the choices. We beat up ourselves the best, so all I will advise is to put the bat down. Pray, and try to do better. I can offer a suggesstion < — always looks weird when i spell this word iunno =/ . Look at what makes you want to do these things. I know before I called my dealer when I would relapse, there was a process of events and choices I made before this came, and sometimes it was days prior. Try to identify your patterns and where they lead. Try to establish a better connection with your Sponsor and network? Which pretty much means pick up that phone when you know you are in trouble. Cell phones saved my life. =] And continue to do so everyday.
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