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    Anonymous

    I have been contemplating addictions (eating disorder and alcohol), moderation and the tenets of 12-step programs. I am in a high stress, high performing profession and clearly have issues with control. But I have difficulty embracing the idea that I am powerless over substances. I am powerless over alcohol only when I have had that first glass of wine or bottle of beer, but I am not powerless if I don’t take that first drink. I feel more like I’m surrendering my power to alcohol when I take that first drink. I am viewing Step 1 more as refusing to surrender that power any longer. I’m not sure if I’m conveying my thoughts distinctly enough, and its certainly not my intention to start a war over the powerlessness issue. I’m wondering if my perspective fits within the constructs of AA.



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    @EmptySoul 2689724 wrote:

    I am powerless over alcohol only when I have had that first glass of wine or bottle of beer, but I am not powerless if I don’t take that first drink.

    No, this perspective doesn’t fit in with the experience contained in AA’s program of recovery. That program is explicit about the mental obsession that leads an alcoholic back to that first drink even after they have been sober for some time.

    But don’t worry. Almost everybody I know, including myself, couldn’t buy into the powerless idea at first. It goes against everything I ever learned or believed about myself. I absolutely do not want to believe that I am powerless. My ego struggles against that truth about myself.

    Fortunately, booze is the great persuader. I can find out for myself if I have the power of choice or not. Let’s see me swear off booze for a year, and stick to it. Every time I tried that experiment, I failed.

    Repeated failure at not drinking makes a convincing argument. If that takes too long to find out, then you can always read Chapters 2 and 3 with a recovered alcoholic, and investigate the mental state before picking up that first drink. See if the Jim, Fred, and the jaywalker stories make any sense to you.



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    Anonymous

    @EmptySoul 2689724 wrote:

    I feel more like I’m surrendering my power to alcohol when I take that first drink.

    …or do you just not have the mental defense at times, and think you are surrendering your power and choosing the drink?



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