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Scared to be honest on my 4th step.



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    Anonymous

    I had something in my fourth step I had never told anyone, and never wanted to. And it was also something that had happened to me.

    I wrote my forth as if I never had to share it with anyone. I put the fifth step out of my mind completely. I told myself if I have to I will burn it when I am done and not continue the steps. I knew I wouldnt do that but whatever I had to do to get it down on paper. Thats what I did, often reminding myself I am on step 4 not 5!!! over and over again.

    Then when I was done I put it away, I already had my appointment booked to do my 5th. When that time came I almost ran away!! lol But I didnt and I still havent told anyone else but I could. I love the freedom. I dont have to hide anymore! Life is much better this way.



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    Anonymous

    Thank you everyone! I think I already knew the answer to my problem, but just needed some reassurance. I’ve listed it on my 4th step, and will trust my sponsor with it on the 5th. It will be in Gods hands then.

    Thanks for being here for me!



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    Anonymous

    @Jesse17 2501261 wrote:

    I came to AA not knowing how it worked, or what the steps were. All I knew was that AA is where people stop drinking, and I couldn’t do that by myself. I had proven that time and time again. And, I dearly wanted to stop drinking!

    Because of this I’ve heeded that line in ‘How It Works’ that says, “With all the earnestness at our command, we beg of you to be fearless and thorough from the very start.” and the one, “Half measures availed us nothing.” I’ve been thorough and honest in every aspect of AA and with my sponsor.

    Now I’m working on my 4th step, and I find myself panicked about telling my sponsor about one of my resentments. It’s one of those resentments that even though someone else hurt me, I’m so embarrassed and afraid someone will find out that I let it happen, I’ve never voiced it to ANYONE before.

    I find myself wanting to go to a different town and find someone I’ll never have to see again, to tell it to. But, I don’t think my sponsor will go for that. Heck, I don’t know if I am fearless enough to do that anyway.

    I really don’t know what to do. I know I should just tell my sponsor, but I don’t know what he’ll think of me afterwords, or if I could even face him afterwords.

    Please share if you had a similar problem. What did you do? How did it work out?

    I wrote the book on geographical cures they don’t work. :gaah
    the problem was I kept taking me



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