This is hard for me to accept because I used to know God before I used. I was a devoted Christian and now I feel like I am so far away from God, why in the world would he help me now. Why do I deserve to have him take my life. I know I am an addict, I know I am powerless, I know my life is unmanagable which is more the reason to have God! I just can’t seem to find him, I can’t get in the habit of medatation or prayer. I feel like I am going crazy, I should really get to a meeting but this is a small town and I am a shy girl. So, I don’t know. If you all can give me any advice I would appreciate it. I am only nine days clean and new to recovery. I am an addict to opiates and my body is still going through it. So, I really need you guys right now!! I have no one else feel free to leave me a message!
Thanks,
Ashlee