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- December 10, 2013 at 9:37 pm #3698061
“Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
Having completed Step One, we’re starting to feel a little more familiar with how the process of recovery works. But now that we’re facing Step Tow, we’ve begun to have second thoughts about whether we’re willing to proceed.
We’re nervous about doing an in-depth analysis of our own mental health. And we’re equally fearful and reluctant about relinquishing our own self-reliance to a power we may feel we don’t have even a nodding acquaintance with.
This is where we have to experiment a little with faith in ourselves, and in the process. Because by the time we have successfully worked through Step Two, we’ll likely have developed a deeper understanding of why self-will and self-determination—no matter how much we struggle to apply them—are simply not powerful enough to effect our recovery.
Also, by the end of Step Two it should be increasingly clear how our compulsion/addiction has compelled us to act in ways that are not indicative of a healthy mind.
Step By Step, daily meditations for living the twelve steps. by Muriel Zink.December 10, 2013 at 9:44 pm #4189644
I struggled with Step Two mainly with the Higher Power concept. I had become so estranged from any sort of organized religion that my concept of God was a man made, vindictive, judgemental, excuse to hate and judge others.
I had to start simple with my concept of a Higher Power. I understood that there was something more powerful than I in this world. My original concept was based on the fact that electricity/energy is present in everything in the world. Even our heart runs off an form of electrical energy when calcium and potassium ions interact. The concept I came up with was a universal energy. That helped me to get past the God concept.
Today my concept of a HP and organized religion has changed substantially. I am much more accepting toward others religion concepts and beliefs.
I also struggled with the insanity part. I did not want to believe that I was insane as it was one of my fears that since I could not controll alcohol that maybe I had a mental defect, that maybe I was crazy. I feared winding up locked up in a mental facility. I realize now that the insanity was the alcoholism. Although I do have some mental defects, which are helped with outside help, I am pretty much as sane as the next person.
I am grateful for the sanity that the program and the Steps have brought me.December 19, 2013 at 7:10 pm #4189642
Before asking me the step 2 question from the Big Book, my sponsor asked me what was the most insane thing you did due to your alcoholism.
I related various drunk stories and he kept saying no, thats not it.
The most insane thing I did was picking up the first drink…every time.
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