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- March 12, 2016 at 10:18 am #3728588
Ok…am on day 120 and have been doing pretty good thus far. I am going to AA meetings, meeting with my sponsor, working out at the gym and have lost 11#. I also have a job interview tomorrow and am working at getting my medical license back. My current problem is whenever I attend AA meetings or meet with my sponsor or work on the steps (I’m currently on step 2), I start craving a drink. It’s when Im not at a meeting or doing any recovery related activities I don’t think about alcohol at all. My sick mind wants to rationalize and convince me that I don’t need these recovery activities because they only make me think of drinking but I know that if I stop my recovery activities that I will eventually relapse. I just wanted to know if meetings, sponsors and doing the steps are a trigger for others. If so, how do I get beyond this? I know I need to attend meetings and work the steps but they cause me to start thinking about drinking and when I don’t I seem to be fine. So confused…..all I know is that I don’t want to relapse and will continue to do everything that I know I should. Seems to be a bump in the road for me and a double edge sword. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!! Thanks!!
:e136:March 12, 2016 at 10:44 am #4632825
Hi, well done on 120 days and going to meetings and working with your sponsor.
@LKKPA 2539500 wrote:
My current problem is whenever I attend AA meetings or meet with my sponsor or work on the steps (I’m currently on step 2), I start craving a drink. [/quote]
According to the Big Book this is not a craving for drink. This disease of alcoholism is made up for a physical craving in the body and a mental obsession. If you are at step 2 you would have read about this in the Dr’s Opinion.
The physical craving of the body is removed quite quickly and easily in a matter of days of being sober. It will only appear again if we take the first sip of alcohol back into our body and then the cravings start and will be overwhelming. This is why the advice is to always stay away from the first drink.
What you are experiencing is the mental obsession to drink. This is very different and cannot be removed by quitting drinking. This obsession of the mind tells us to drink even when the body doesn’t need it. It tells us to drink when we are least expecting it. It is “cunning, baffling and powerful” to the point it will tell us to drink even when we are doing lots to keep ourselves sober.
The only way that I was able to remove this mental obsession to drink was working all the Steps. It promises us in the Big Book at Step 10 that “the problem has been removed” – p84-85Quote:I just wanted to know if meetings, sponsors and doing the steps are a trigger for others. If so, how do I get beyond this?
If you are like me then the only way to get beyond this is to work all the Steps.
The longer you stay where you are you are, you are fighting this obsession of the mind on will-power and will-power will eventually run out.
You need a Power greater than your own will-power so you can recover from this mental obsession. I would suggest you speak to your sponsor and look to working through the rest of the steps thoroughly……but quickly.
Good luck.March 12, 2016 at 12:00 pm #4632820
There is a saying in AA and possibly other places about, “focus on the solution and not the problem”. Unfortunately, while there is a lot of solution talk in meetings one can’t help but focus somewhat on the problem. There is a view inside the room, that those “outside” not in recovery are “sick”. The reality is that no recovery takes place in meeting it is all outside that recovery takes place. AA is not a requirement in any way shape or form to stay sober. There are sober, healthy people everywhere. I have seen very good examples and activities outside the rooms and there is not talk or constant bombardment with the “problem”. I think it would behoove anyone whether they participate in AA or not to find recovery at the Gym, in nature, in community groups, political or social groups, volunteer groups, etc. You are not alone in having problems with AA meetings. I think for those that benefit AA is great, but if there is a problem then one might look for another solution. Don’t drink and LIVE a full healthy life is the big secret to staying sober and it can be found anywhere. I find healthy behavior I can emulate everywhere. The only behavior I can’t do is drink socially, so I don’t.
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